final things
So that’s it. It’s all over!
The flight back to England on Thursday was maybe one of the hardest long haul trips I’ve had in my life. It wasn’t that the plane was delayed, or there was a lot of turbulence, or I sat between particularly strange strangers. It was just difficult because I was stuck between two sets of people that I love dearly; one group in Japan, one in the UK. And that was the last place I wanted to be!
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Fukuoka leaving gang
This sensation is a familiar one, with family in New Zealand often evoking tears in the international departures terminal. But the trip from Fukuoka to London seemed harsher because, unlike the holiday trips down to New Zealand, I was stuck between two lives and two worlds. It wasn’t that I was just rejoining my busy, daily reality when I touched down at Heathrow; I was making the choice to not continue living in Japan and start my working life in England.
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Part 1 of the UK welcoming team (thanks also Hannah + Naomi!)
I’ve talked about this with a million and one people, but, for those who aren’t aware, I’m back in the UK for a few reasons. The main one is that my scholarship through Oxford had run its course and my return flight had already been generously paid for. A second is that it’s really hard to be away from friends and family in a foreign culture for ten months and I wanted to come and see everyone! I hadn’t met my little nephew yet, and was desperately keen to catch up with super wonderful pals from uni, etc. I’ve also come back to the UK to seek dual citizenship, and if I’d stayed abroad much longer would not have been able to satisfy residency criteria for the application. I also need to a get a job (#adultlife), and the opportunities in the UK are way more my cup of tea than what’s available in other parts of the world atm. The final reason is that with all of my experiences of the church in Japan, I feel excited to share the encouragements and challenges facing that part of the world with the church here, especially with people in England who are equipped to potentially serve in that field.
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❤ Wills and his Japanese doggo ❤
Grab a coffee with me for more details on all of the above and more if you’re interested!
I am obviously delighted with the opportunity I had to live in Japan and experience a taste of the culture, history, and food of that wonderful country. It really began to feel like home in a lot of ways.
Coming back to the UK has actually been a bit of a culture shock! There have been some amazing reunions, like with my beloved hummus, as well as a few surprises, like the diversity of people’s race and appearance. It might take me a while to get settled back in, and there are a few things that I’ll miss in particular from Japan.
I’m yet to take a train in England again, but I know already that it will come nowhere close to the cleanliness, regularity, and punctuality of their Japanese counterparts. With various teaching, and church commitments in town every day, I spent a solid week of time in total on the Nishitetsu train into Tenjin and back out again to Futsukaichi. So let’s say I got to know the trains pretty well. On the Fukuoka underground there was also a great array of announcements, including fake bird song to lighten the mood.
On a related note, the instrumental music wafting around in any Japanese store, spa, or station will be missed. Not because it was actually soothing any more than it was slightly annoying, but because it was absolutely hilarious and often quite inappropriate. A notable daily example is the random songs that they would make instrumental covers of and play in convenience stores. One of my favourite peak-Japan memories of the year was trying to decide between chocolate melon pans at a 7/11 in the middle of rural Kumamoto at 5 in the morning. As if to pep me up before the earthquake volunteering we’d headed south for, a full orchestral version of Van Halen’s ‘Jump’ cooed through the overhead speakers with a lightness completely contradictory to the aerobics-power-ballad tone of the original song.
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View from the train feat. HILLS
The dormitory in Futsukaichi was surrounded by a string of dark hills, and I’ll miss these a lot as well. Covered with forest, they would often sit heavy against the sky, shrouded in cloud. They seemed alive throughout the year in their activity in every weather. England has a lovely, different kind of nature with soft greens and trees and gardens everywhere, but I’ll definitely miss those dark shapes on the horizon with such fascinating shifting movements of cloud.
An absolutely classic Japanese thing I’m already missing is the food, particularly good soba and sushi. I almost died of happiness when I tucked into a hummus and cucumber wrap on my first evening back in the UK, don’t get me wrong. It’s also such a joy to have tasty, cheap fruit and veg again. But the simple beauty of Japanese food presentation and flavour is SO GOOD, too good not to miss. In particular, I’ll really miss little conveyor belt sushi restaurants where you stack up your empty plates at the end of the table and sit back in wasabi-induced bliss.
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Last meal in Japan = rice, obvs (thanks Wakana <3)
Finally, despite only three days away, I REALLY miss the people. The real highlight of my whole time away was definitely the pals I met, particularly those involved with Lifehouse Fukuoka. This gang are a real family, full of joy, love, and fun. Their heart for God, each other, and their incredible city was such a pleasure to experience. It was a real joy to do life with them for ten months, and I look forward to keeping in touch to hear about all they pursue in their next seasons.
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Amazing gals at Shine day
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The gang before Ohori Park fireworks/Ohori Koen hanabi
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Tomoyo and Erika at conference
For all these things, I don’t mean at all to give an impression of reluctance at returning to the UK – far from it! It is a privilege and honour to have parts of my heart in various places around the world, and pain at leaving different places, things, and people is inevitable. And despite the current uncertainty of the details for my job and living situation, etc., it is wonderful to be back surrounded by the architecture, manners, and individuals that I know and love here in England.
Thanks so much for keeping up with my various adventures on this blog, and I had so many more than those I’ve written about. If you’re interested in catching up in person at all, do get in touch with me and I’d love to say hi over a coffee or some hummus-filled delight.
Thanks for everything Japan, and thank you God for your faithful, unexpected blessing in so many things. Here we go, England!